i dunno wat i really wanna b in ma life..peluang dtg sebelum ku sempat mngenali siapa diriku..so how can i decide wut best for me as i am in uncertainty..ak dlm 'KETIDAKPASTIAN' !!!
sampai bile kuharus begini??mengharung hidup yang tiada matlamat..apekah ak ini penakut utk menetapkan matlamat hidup??ntah la ape mslh nyr..ak dh lpas kn pluang by pluang yg dtg menjengah..ak x myesal cma kadang kala ak pusing 360 degree like i'm a lost person..wondering wat is my nxt step..sume yg dilepaskan ku anggap sbg sejarah yg x terlakar..
sampi ble kuharus begini??xtaw ape yg hendak dikejar dlm hidup..i need dream to run towards..but yet i dunno wut to dream about..so far rs cm ikut arus jerr bkn kehendak ht (ht ku tiada kehendak kah kah3)..eventhough i did so i still fine until n0w..em mebi btulla kate teacher ku ms year 6..ak ni mcm magnet,bole tarik ape ajer..hahhaa yeker..em apepon ak ade sifat penakut dlm diri (darjah ketakutan tu x pasti), x reti nk solid n rigid kn diri sndiri n pgaruh kwn giv impact in ma life..
smpi ble kuharus begini??smpi hjg nyawa kah kah3..how to shape the future is still in my hand!! eventhough the past cannot be changed (em x rs pon nk change my past)..
oh TUHAN, berilah ak petunjuk dlm mgenali hidupku..bantulah ak wahai teman2 sume~~~
***entry ni tercetus akibat dilema yg dialami lately..well, hidup br nk mula ni..br nk mencorak kehidupan di alam nyata,,dimana persekitaran yg bakal ditempuh tdk lg dilindungi spt zmn skul,mtr3k & uni..we r no m0re being protected by the organisation@institusi ..ape yg psti tggl hnya la diri sndiri n family yg sntiasa blh diharap w/pn berjauhan..em klu bole nk cr work environment yg mcm family n friendly la..nk rutin sharian yg membahagiakan n membokehkan stiap saat hidup dinikmati..ehh tp mn ade sng dlm berjuang, mn ade bumi yg x ditimpa hjn..hahaha nmpk nyr ak mgejar fantasi bkn realiti no wonder laaaaaaaaaaa..
mampukah ak merealisasikan fantasiku???
0 celoteh:
Post a Comment